MAKE YOURSELF EXPERIENCE!
Love yourself!
When someone says this to you, how do you react!
HOW?
Everything that I get in my head then is, “what do you think I’m doing? Like what?”
Every day, when I cried my ass off, you weren’t there to stop me, to wipe my tears, or give me a sip of water or just stand by my side, see me tremble over! Cause yeah, my eyes were surplus of tears and busted like spillway, I was breathless like I had no oxygen left in the room, my veins were all drained like I had no blood left in them, my hands, shivering like leaves on a stormy day, my heart beat raised like the speed of bikes on a race track, and my mind filled with venomous ideas!
There were times when I screamed quickly in my mind, when I closed the fingers of my shivering hands and punched them against the wall, when my throat wasn't even able to swallow the air I breath, when the traumas in my head never allowed me to fall asleep, when my head busted with pain, when my eyes gave up on the world, when blades rushed into my skin, and when my thoughts were my enemies!
You were not there my dear!
All that I had was myself, trying to make justifications of what broke me, trying to kick the demon out of my maze, trying to make my soul stronger, trying to hit over my faults or just call it karma!
I was with myself, and my dear, if you think I dont love myself, please, go and get some life!
After all I have been through, I dont act to love myself, people show their self love in the form of "#Ilovemyself" hashtags, but you really think its truly true? I dont, I've seen many people on social media saying they love themselves, but in real life, they suck! They dont even believe they are worth self love! Or maybe I have people around me as such!
Cause, when you love someone on a 0 level, you wont try to stop them from being themself, and to apply it on self love, you should let yourself be yourself!
Let you cry till you heal,
Let you laugh till your stomach hurts,
Let you think till your head aches,
Let you starve untill you wanna eat,
And,
Let you eat untill your stomach says enough!
Let your you, experience life to the fullest, why do you wanna stop yourself from experiencing the ultimate of everything!
Cause only when we experiemce the ultimate can we love oneself unconditional!
When someone says this to you, how do you react!
HOW?
Everything that I get in my head then is, “what do you think I’m doing? Like what?”
Every day, when I cried my ass off, you weren’t there to stop me, to wipe my tears, or give me a sip of water or just stand by my side, see me tremble over! Cause yeah, my eyes were surplus of tears and busted like spillway, I was breathless like I had no oxygen left in the room, my veins were all drained like I had no blood left in them, my hands, shivering like leaves on a stormy day, my heart beat raised like the speed of bikes on a race track, and my mind filled with venomous ideas!
There were times when I screamed quickly in my mind, when I closed the fingers of my shivering hands and punched them against the wall, when my throat wasn't even able to swallow the air I breath, when the traumas in my head never allowed me to fall asleep, when my head busted with pain, when my eyes gave up on the world, when blades rushed into my skin, and when my thoughts were my enemies!
You were not there my dear!
All that I had was myself, trying to make justifications of what broke me, trying to kick the demon out of my maze, trying to make my soul stronger, trying to hit over my faults or just call it karma!
I was with myself, and my dear, if you think I dont love myself, please, go and get some life!
After all I have been through, I dont act to love myself, people show their self love in the form of "#Ilovemyself" hashtags, but you really think its truly true? I dont, I've seen many people on social media saying they love themselves, but in real life, they suck! They dont even believe they are worth self love! Or maybe I have people around me as such!
Cause, when you love someone on a 0 level, you wont try to stop them from being themself, and to apply it on self love, you should let yourself be yourself!
Let you cry till you heal,
Let you laugh till your stomach hurts,
Let you think till your head aches,
Let you starve untill you wanna eat,
And,
Let you eat untill your stomach says enough!
Let your you, experience life to the fullest, why do you wanna stop yourself from experiencing the ultimate of everything!
Cause only when we experiemce the ultimate can we love oneself unconditional!
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